Does this predestination negate free will or do we use our freedom to choose at the soul level to plan the life activity that will create the “causes” and “effects” (yes, a deliberate and defiant poke at karma;-) necessary for achieving a successful run in the physical time-space illusion that is Earth? And do we actively use an intuitive form of free will, while incarnate, to help us navigate our way around potential variables and “accidents” that divert us from our predetermined paths?

Do destiny and free will both serve valid roles in helping bring about what’s best for our greatest good and the greatest good of all?

Very deep questions that usually provoke emotional, sometimes angry, fear based responses, from people who attend my talks and seminars…

“Why would someone CHOOSE a life of evil and doing bad things?”… “why would a mother CHOOSE to lose her child at birth?”… “why would Hitler CHOOSE to murder millions of innocent men, women and children?”

The simple answer is, we don’t, what we do choose is to unconditionally provide the life experiences, whether you label them “good”, “bad”, “evil”, “beautiful” etc, that will enable others to experience the full spectrum of human experiences and the full range of emotions engendered.

It’s not the mother who solely CHOOSES to have the experience of losing a child at birth… another soul has unconditionally agreed to give of itself in service, so the mother, and others, like the father, siblings, midwives, doctors etc, can experience the emotions and feelings that will enable them to grow, develop, mature and evolve spiritually (don’t kid yourself – everyone involved has given permission, at a deeper level of being, to share in this experience)!

The Universe is far more dynamic and interesting than the limited picture painted by science, religion and society.

So many times I hear spiritually minded people talk about how we’re one energy… the Universe… Creation… God… one energy field…

If you too believe that we are all one then does it really matter if the human learning system has set rules that involve predetermined events or a free (will) for all… regardless of the semantics, this one energy field which is us, is learning about itself!

It’s just our current limited perspective from within the system doesn’t allow us the clarity to see the perfection of the design… nevertheless, on some level of consciousness – we ARE aware!

Right, well, down from my soap box I come, because you don’t even want me to get started on how much I’m grateful to the Illuminati for playing their role in this amazing Earth-Life-System;-)

Does this indicate that aspects of my Higher-Self have an obsessive interest in train-spotting, or is this a narrative or a “sign” to signal – a meeting with self is eminent?

Suffice to say, I will now be better prepared for such encounters in the future, and I’m not talking about data books and anoraks, as I now have a clear association between train stations and Higher-Self that I can use as a trigger for becoming more lucid or consciously aware during my night-time experiences!

Or is it that I’ve jut been watching way too many old Soul Train clips on Youtube;-)

OBE: 15 December, 2009

Sitting at a table

OBE: 11, December 2009

Woke up at 3am then went down stairs to do my usual preparations prior to doing an OBE session.

After eliminating distractions (bladder, hunger and thirst), I read a book on the subject of Higher-Self till around 4.15am then settled into my OBE session.

My focus for this OBE session was meeting Higher-Self, hence setting the intention by first reading a book on the subject.

In stead of using my usual OBE techniques, I used a more advanced method called ‘phase shifting’, a technique employed by Robert Monroe to help him avoid the “inner rings” (first few nonphysical dimensions) and navigate to the “outer rings” (higher dimensions, which is said to be where more enlightened beings reside as well as where Higher-Self is parked, just outside of time and space).

I wanted to use this technique because I thought… if I want to go straight to my conscious source then I might as well try using the right “tool” for the job, especially as all the more experienced out-of-body explorers such as Monroe, William Buhlman, and even Frank Kepple, were getting some good action with phase shifting (btw, if you’ve never heard of Frank Kepple then mosey on over to The Frank Kepple Resource, what an amazing guy!).

Right, after getting myself deeply relaxed by doing some breath work and using some hemi-sync (The Gateway Experience, CD #18), I set about the goal of meeting Higher-Self by using the phase shifting technique coupled with the following affirmations…

Now I shift my awareness to my conscious source…
Now I shift my awareness to my conscious source…
Now I shift my awareness to my conscious source…

After about five minutes of this affirmation, I switched to…

Higher-Self Now!
Higher-Self Now!
Higher-Self Now!

And after about five minutes of using this affirmation, I kept my focus on meeting Higher-Self as I allowed a slight dip in consciousness…

Then, just as I seemed to be dipping too much, I CLEARLY “heard” my name being called, a telepathic “voice” to help me regain just enough conscious awareness to continue my journey without loosing consciousness, or the classic ‘mind split’ affect as labelled by Robert Bruce, the author of ‘Astral Dynamics’.

Now, with elevated conscious awareness, I continued to focus on meeting Higher-Self, and again, I allowed my consciousness to ebb ever so…

Then, a rush of energy and quick flash of light, and before me stood a woman… so beautiful I thought as she and the light started to fade away.

I then must have allowed my consciousness to dip too much as I found myself waking up shortly after from an EXTREMELY vivid “dream”, which had strong elements of unconscious OBE activity!

The experience follows…

Dream/Unconscious OBE:

I found myself standing in a big hall full of people, and I had a strong thought in my mind that I must hurry along and get to the second instalment of a new series of seminars I’m running, called, The Higher-Self Briefings… but, a nagging “voice” in my head was saying… “it’s not your seminars, Todd, but another type of briefing”…

However, I ignored the message and walked around the hall looking for the manager as I wanted to enquire whether I could hold the seminar here, right now, as I knew “they” were on their way, so it was urgent that I organised the venue immediately!

Suddenly, logical reasoning switched up a gear, and I started thinking that the next Higher-Self Briefing wasn’t until the 20th of December, so why was I panicking about needing to organise a venue?

I then had the thought that “they” were at the meeting point, Amersham Station? Amersham, I thought, I must get to the station.

I then left the hall and was outdoors when I noticed I had an umbrella in my hand, but it was flapping about in the air, broken… but when I examined it more closely, I could see that the handle was out of its central position and that it had swivelled up one of the spokes, right to the end.  But, under closer inspection, I noticed the umbrella wasn’t broken, but yet was designed that way… at which point logical reasoning kicked in again and made me think, who would design an umbrella to do this (after “waking” up, I realised this must have been a signal to become more consciously aware within the experience, but my damn logical reasoning had switched itself off again!!!).

Walking away from the hall, towards Amersham?, I finally came to what I thought was the village centre, but on arriving, I realised the station was at the other end of the village, so I started walking with more of a rush as I kept thinking how “late” I was and how “they” would all be waiting for me. However, the more I tried to hurry up, the slower I walked… it was as if I had a great burden on my back and I was being slowed down under its weight.

Then, I came across a foot bridge that passed over a small gully, and as I made my way across it, I could see that a segment of the bridge was missing, so in my mind, I started swinging the bridge back and forth, and then with almost no effort, I jumped from the bridge to the other side of the gully. Once on the other side, I spotted what seemed to be a derelict train station in the middle of the woods, and suddenly had a deep feeling that “they” were here… that “they” were waiting for me inside.

As I walked around to the back of the station, I could see 8 young adults dressed in American style cheerleader outfits, one male and the others female… and as I approached them, they started shouting “our hero, our hero, our hero”.  Trying to calm them down, I asked, where are all the others, at which point, I walked into the station and found 10 or so older adults sitting, waiting…

And as soon as I saw the others, my conscious awareness snapped full on, and I had a sudden thought… where are all the others… so few are here… where are all the others?

Then, as I was about to communicate with those sitting down, I felt a rush of energy and motion and then soon found myself “waking up”, back in my physical body.

And as I became more consciously aware within waking physical reality, in my ears I could hear the voice of Laurie Monroe, on the Gateway CD…

“Now give thanks to those who have helped you… express your gratitude for this experience… know that you can always connect with each other… all you need do is think of the ones, those who have helped you, and know that help is always and freely available from this point forward…”

Why do I think Laurie’s words are significant?

Well, for over a year now, I’ve been using a special 3-hour extended version of the track that I cut specifically for my longer OBE sessions, as I didn’t want things like the guided aspects of the CD, such as, Laurie’s voice, and the very powerful signals that are used to bring you out of the strong altered states the CD induces… these signals caused so many of my fully conscious OBEs to prematurely end in the first year of my explorations…

However, I felt inspired over the past week to start using the original CD again… why now… after all these years, when FINALLY, I decide I will make a serious effort to meet with Higher-Self?

The syncrhonicity of it all is so powerful and inspiring!

This experience has already started to stimulate an avalanche of deep thinking in my mind…

So many questions…

I now need to induce some fully-conscious OBEs over the coming days and weeks…

Dream: 9 December, 2009

Standing in a room full of people, in a structure that was a mixture of the London Water Tower venue that I use for OBE workshops, and a holiday rental style property, I seemed to be leading a group of people in a meditation or studies, when suddenly, I became aware of a powerful energy that was filling the room… a radiant energy that seemed familiar!

I then found myself  high up in a tree, clinging to a branch when I became slightly “lucid”… at which point my heart leapt from the shock of being so high off the ground. After calming down, I then noticed the tree I was clinging to, stood in a circle of tall trees… the perfection of the grouping of trees was amazing.

Near the perimeter of the trees, I then noticed a friend who recently attended one of my OBE workshops… she gave me a quick wave and then headed towards the structure where I felt the powerful energy.

After waking up, I couldn’t help but feel this was an unconscious OBE, and I also had the sense that this was a type of nonphysical learning school… the type of school Robert Monroe and Whitney Schreiber have both written about.

And to wake up feeling totally “awake” and energised… at 3.45am – wow!

My words above just don’t give the experience justice, whether it was just a dream or a unconscious OBE!

And just yesterday I was telling a friend on the telephone that I felt some interesting, deep experiences are going to take place over the next few weeks.

I have an inward feeling that my learning is about to accelerate exponentially… I look forward to getting down to some serious self-initiated OBE activity over the coming days and weeks as I feel a meeting with Higher-Self is on the cards!